Parental Guidance Advised

2009-01-14T11:55:00.002+08:00

its seems that i'm going back to my old habits of being dropped into the pits of thee hell of the jap craze...well, it is the exam season after all...time to start being distracted from my studies i guess...

anyway, wanna guz how i'm gonna spend the next 3 hours? its not really a brain-cracking question actually...i'm watching my drama...yeah...put the blame on Roger...he was like "hey!!! did watch Scrap Teacher...??its DAMN funny!!!"

...and i swore not to start on another drama until my last paper just the weekend before...

haiz...i guz when the cat is away, the mice will play....here, the cat happens to be my bf who had kindly left me alone so that i can concentrate on my studies...n of coz the mice (mouse actually...i'll dump him if i find out that im not the only mouse around him...) is playing her hearts out (ie, watching drama and fangurling over little boys...gosh...im turning into a paedophile/peadophile/ MJ-wannabe!!!)

oh well...i guz i'll have to renew my promise again after the last episode of Scrap Teacher...and prolly break it again within days, since Kame's drama is coming up next...no matter what, i NEVER miss a Kame drama okaaaay.....even if it means having a paper the next day...actually, no lah...i'm not really that bad... i'll simply postpone it to the afternoon after i finish that paper...

...and Ohno's gonna play in a comedy role too!! = more dramas. i shouldn't even think about making promises...its never gonna work...its too inborn in me (BS...I only started 2 years ago...but it feels like a habit...)

today i had my hair done-up in Ryousuke style...actually, its nowhere near to his style...juz loads of hairpins on my head...but i like it...his style i mean...n i try to imitate it...if only i had a lil more time...or better still, a hairstylist to do it for me...his hairstylist to be exact...but its never gonna be the same...coz its Ryousuke...the next Tegoshi....cute, and ABSOLUTELY pretty...im swear im turning peado...paedo...argh!! MJ-wannabe...but Ryousuke's hair looks so goooooooooood in their PV...of coz, there is nooooo doubt that he'll be the cutest in HSJ!lucky them...even beating Chinen, who apparently, is growing up faster than i realized...

n coz i spent the whole of last night juz stuck on HSJ, i got their song stuck on my head now...thruout the ICP test, i was happily singing the song in my head while i continuously scribbled CRAP on my paper....

....n once in a while, i whispered to noone in particular...

"*Shadooo?"

(note: * = shadow in jap spelling)

2008-02-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

simply becoz Tesshi wore it...of coz he wore the men's version...this is the ladies...why isn't Russ-K in singapore???? its already sold out in Mise* la...wonder who bought the darned thing...and its not really cheap...askfhlsdhfjhal;l...i'll go broke if i buy this...dang...

why the hell am i posting so often??

i should be studying!!

2008-02-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

once again i've moved on to another number in my life...in a matter of split seconds i watch as the clock tick past 12am and thought to myself "Ahh...so this is it...I'm now 22"

There were no celebrations whatsoever...funny how i enjoyed my 22nd birthday more than the 21st...last year, there was this pressure of making it the best birthday bash of your life which i had refused...i prefer it simple...people msging me to wish me happy b'dae is more than enough i guz...the fact that i woke up this morning to find a few msgs wishin me totally made my day...surprisingly, all of them are my sec sch frens...haha...old frens are the best i guz...

okay...so maybe i did celebrate it a lil...coz my dad insisted on eating out...not too surprisingly though, it wasn't me who chose the place...coz my bro was acting as if it was his b'dae, and was buggering me to choose pizza hut...i wasn't havin any cravings, so pizza hut it was...a satisfying meal with your loved ones on ur 22nd b'dae....what could be better ryt?

went home to check CR as usual...feelin a lil self-conceitedly special that the NewS version of Taiyou no Namida is released on my b'dae...not that the producers know me of coz...lolz!! but an even bigger and more pleasant surprise awaited me...

thank you for making this forum..

im happy I was chosen to be part of the jimusho.

(and yes I can't forget when I was new here..*hiding myself using my 2 hands*)

*shots myself for 2539184 times*

hontouni arigatou!!!

teinna posted it an hour before the end of 5th Feb...and it was a very nice completion for my 22nd b'dae....they are truly a lovely bunch whom i've been interacting with over the past one year plus, and i'm glad we've formed real close ties despite having never seen each other...haha the power of fangurling...

anyway, thanks to all who wished me happy b'dae...its been great for me...i'll promise to work even harder and put in my best efforts...but that doesn't mean i wun play as hard too...if there is one thing i wish for my 22nd b'dae, it is that i will never lose the child in me....

Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!!

2008-02-28T17:00:00.003+08:00

hmm...this is the trouble of staying at home to study...there are a lot of things that you can do when you dun feel like studying...you can:

*eat whenever and wherever you feel like

*eat whatever and whenever you feel like

*finish up a whole mars bars while still on the same page of your POA lecture note

*log on to the computer "for awhile" during the supposed "break" and end up there for 2 hours

*log on to the comp again coz you simply cannot get anything in your head

its all the things that you cannot do when you are studying outside, which i tried to avoid by studying at home, which eventually become a major major problem...its a hindrance...oh well...i'll start after this...i promise...

realise that i can't study in the afternoons...i'll be super sleepy and forever hungry...so when i eat, i get sleepier...sleep = no studying = potential failure...how many times i've been through this same process over and over and over again? trying to cram one year's worth of lesson into my head within one week...not that the cramming sessions are very successful that is...not with me on this comp right now...and its a bludeh frickin 5 o'clock dammit!! i've just wasted 6 hours of doing everything except studying...singing included...

had to pull myself away from watching the first epi of Isshun no Kaze ni Nare...it was super hard...remember how i said Tacchon/Ohkura was beautiful? he's bee surpassed...By Pink Ranger, Uchi Hiroki...that guy is sooooo beautiful now that he has more meat to him!! i was spazzing like crazy yesterday when i watched the INK extras...and idk why, but seeing him posing beside Ryo makes me wanna cry...those two must have missed each other a lot...i know this might sound crazy, but i really think they'll make a great couple...you can practically FEEL the tenderness coming from Ryo coming out of their photoshoots together...and its a tenderness from Ryo that is reserved only when he is with Uchi...meaning you wun see that tenderness from any of Ryo's photoshoot for the past 2 years that Uchi's been suspended...omg...i think i shall declare that RyoUchi is now my official fave pairing since there seems no hope of an Akame revival...not with Kame acting stand-offish still...

oh wait...for those of you who didn't get it, Ryo and Uchi are not gays...they are members from NewS and Kanjani8...and they are super cute bestfriends who really care for each other...Ryo is the one with the poison tongue, forever calling himself the Sexy Osaka Man...and he is, i guarantee that....he is very manly and he protects Uchi like a protective lover...haha...Uchi is the pretty and beautiful one...the baby of Kanjani8..nicknamed the Princess, coz he is Pink Ranger in Eito Ranger...so when you put the both of them together, you get the makings of a great yaoi fanfic...one which i'm writing right now, coz Ryouchi totally pawns my heart and soul...yes...i'm writing yaoi fanfics...but you wun see it...i'd rather not...only people who'll never meet me in life can read it...XD

oh just in case you are wondering how they look like...

Uchi Hiroki (left) and Nishikido Ryo (right)

RYOUCHI PAWNS MY SOUL!!!

2008-11-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

uh...juz visited yan's blog...happen to see her blog webbie and since we aren't realli able to kip in touch, i decided to see how she's doin in life...it was quite...shocking. okay...it wasn't THAT shocking, but it was surprising...shes currently engaged (the only one out of the 4 of us) n i felt that we are already worlds apart...ok...so me n her hadn't been kipin intouch as she had wif jun n me wif jun...but juz readin her entries, i realized how being engaged is a whole lot different than being in a relationship...ok...like DUH!! u may say...but this is an eye-opener to me, i guz...she calls him honey n baby...kk...i call nas tat too...but only in private....hmmm....maybe its the status itself...being engaged to the guy means u r half-officially married to him...a prep course, i shud say....in a way, its quite frightening (i'm a commitment-phobe still....) but on the other hand, it is quite...interesting?

but dun get me wrong. there is no way i'm gonna jump into engagement status so soon, much less marriage. i'm a commitment-phobe, rem? (i juz mentioned tat again). its gonna take me quite a few years to prepare myself for such a one-way highway...if nothing more, i wanna do my best for my final year n work n save up n go japan (yessss....i'm that poor to hafta work n save up to go japan) n buy a car n wait till he completes his degree n get a better job n....wat the hell am i tokkin abt? argh!!! i'm thinkng too far ahead again....haiz...guz blacque thinks in terms of years instead of days, ne?

but seeing yan who is happily gonna get married soon, i feel happy for her. glad that she found someone to light up her life and share her blissful moments wif. a wonderful gal such as her deserves a wonderful guy like him. ok, pls ignore the fact that i've never met him n juz learnt his name minutes ago...lol!!

haiz...i guz, as we grow older, we will all go our own way, ne? there are some frens whom u'll keep in touch wif no matter how long it had been...there are others u'll see once in a while...we will all grow up n haf our own families n be busy wif em ne? juz being in a relationship is already more than enuf to change the schedules in ur life...which i realized...n since we r on a coolin-off period (coz he is having his exams), i decided to take this chance n go back to my old lifestyle...catching up on naruto shippuuden, a drama-thon of maou n currently zettai kareshi...startin to keep up wif the ongoin VK Guilty anime....late night sleeps...slackin on my studies (ok, this one is not good)...juz goin back to my pre-nas way of life....n i realize how much i miss that lifestyle...so i've decided, tat i'll try to incorporate that into my current lifestyle as well...the problem wif tat however, is i'm already tryin too many things into my life...when my life previously had been divided into 3 parts only (family, school n internet life), now i hafta squeeze in another..him of coz...n i think my stress capacity n concentration allows for only 3 parts...not 4....n the fact that im in my final year n hafta study hard for my bludeh SIX subjects....i can feel the stress building up sooner or later....hmm....do i haf the capacity to hold it in? its time i put my new pattern into test-mode ne?

ah well....good luck to me....

2008-09-27T02:03:00.002+08:00

two nights ago, i had a very nice convo wif zul...it was damn great...coz we were having a bitch session..and bitch sessions are ALWAYS very nice...all the beans r spilled and when u spill the beans wif a mat, its bound to have u laughing like crazy in front of your comp...when fahmi joined us later, it was more hilarity ensued...

damn...i muz mit up wif them one of these days....lepak tgh wif the mats...be the only rose among the thorns...a very funny bunch of thorns...haha...

hmm...its 3 days to raya n i'm stuck making my cupcakes for tmr...first time trying to bake anything cakey coz all this time its been biscuits only...

hmm...hope it'll turn out well...

the whole raya prep is getting on my nerves...n when the prep is gonna be over, it will be replaced by those visits...which i soooo hate coz i hafta serve em everytime they come...daughter of the house, eh? sianz....

haiz...it'll be 2 more weeks till i next see...ahem ahem...withdrawal symptoms r so sian-atizing....y can't u fall in love w/o having to suffer from the whole "i miss u" deal when u dun get to see him...?even a frickin great streak of naru-thoning isn't enuf to dislodge him from my brain cells...this is sooo getting on my nerves...coz i want to see him....especially since he cut his fringe...bludeh hell...there goes the cute fringe...damn it...huh! gotta blame this all on the whole raya hooohaaa...

damn it.

i seriously wanna see him.

damn it.

better get back to my naru-thon.

2008-09-23T17:03:00.005+08:00

alright...this is only the 2nd week and already i'm skipping lectures halfway...but theres a "valid" reason...i din bring my ME lecture notes for Game theory...if u think that was bad, guz wat? i slept in my first ever lecture of the new semester last week...

another chance at that first class honours? i dun think there's a possibility for me to smell third class even, if i am to keep this up...

so far all the lectures i've been attending are my repeat lectures...so i kept getting the "been there, done that" kind of un-motivation...that nonchalant attitude towards my repeat subjects....REPEAT subjects...meaning i have absolutely no reasons to ignore them again like last year...but here i am, doin it alllllllll over again....

Blacque is repetitive and compulsive in her habits...can't blame her...

Sunny Goh was being quite a charm as usual for his OTIA....i'm hearing new stories, so it kept me interested (while i'm not dozing off...unintentionally, of coz...) hey....its always the crap stories he tells that got me glued waaaattt....never the contents...thats why i'm a failure in OTIA...coz when it comes down to the crunch time, with a pair of frozen hands and 10 frozen fingers that felt as if i'm gonna get frostbites at any time of the3-hours paper, it was always the crap stories that comes to memory...never the contents....

if i were to push the blame partially on the sunny guy, i'd say his contents weren't reliable in times of need...his crap stories were much more reliable....on the other hand, if the blame is to be pushed on the one who set the paper, i'd say he dunno how to select questions...giving us questions with absolutely no reliable source to back us up....

realize i am totalli refusing to take the blame? then u'll know that i was juz crapping in the last paragraph...the sunny guy's stories had rubbed off on me....(pushing the blame again)

on the other hand, Ting's stories and jokes are the SAME repetitive jokes which i heard last year....so much so that it felt like deja vu...

here is the amazing ting (pun intended)...i ACTUALLY LAUGHED again!!!

makes me ting (pun intended, again XD), ting is prolly the closest to what we have to our very own SIM's Mr Bean....all those 100 million re-runs, and we never get tired of it...even Nageb cudn't pull that one off with his "ang goon kia!" (how do u spell that?)

talking abt nageb, my ICP lesson has yet to start this week...what took him so long?? i'm sooo looking forward to the pressurizing, crazy class that i'll expect from him...seriously...i'm not kidding...its prolly my 2nd most anticipated class this sem coz i noe nageb is teaching...my most anticipated class this sem is gonna be ESAP, taught by....*drum roll*...THE SUNNY GUY!!!

yes...u better believe me when i say i'm getting a double dosage of the sunny guy this year...i have the timetable printed in black and white to prove it, u noe...looks like it'll be extra sunny this year, for me...hope i wun get too sun-burnt....wahahaha!!! lame sia!!!!

haiz...this is what u become when u take 6 subjects in ur final year, i guz...ur brain gets fried EVEN before the real sem start its roll....

so i did, what i tot wud have been a good remedy for this disease called "boredom"...

i went to watch a movie alone.

okk...it was becoz i was stuck with nothing to do while waiting for 3 hours to pass since ICP haven start this week yet...and coz it is fasting month, i can't possibly do the other favourite pastime of mine, which is eating, of coz....so a few minutes before OTIA lecture ends, i began packing my stuffs, making a whole lot of noise as Bethia had done for last year...(Bethia is soooooo gonna be proud of her new disciple)

i even messaged ry coz i KNEW she'd be slacking at home...(fellow slackers seem to understand the patterns of another slacker, u see....)but i think she has yet to wake up at that time (it was a frickin 12 pm yo!!!lunch, brudder!! lunch!!! how cud u ever miss out on ur ritual gorge-times??!!)

anyway, since she cudn't make it, i decided to stick to my initial plan, which was watching my movie at JEC...when i got there, i did the one thing that i tot was unimaginable....

i chose to watch MIRRORS over Mamma Mia....

a bludeh horror movie over a sunny, romantic comedy-cum-musical....

ALONE.

HOW I REGRETTED IT.

i was only in my first 10 minutes of the movie, and i was already scrambling frantically for my bag which i had nonchalantly and gallantly threwn aside when i first sat down.

that movie is....urgh!!!

good thing i was fasting. if i have any food wif me, i wud have puked...

worst thing? there were only 6 ppl in the theatre, including me...a couple which sat infront, two tai tais who have too much money and prolly feeling young and decide to watch a horror movie...and an uncle who is as alone as i was at the back...i was sitting in a row, all by myself...and everytime a horror scene comes on, i was looking to my left and right, as if trying to look for someone...

well...actually, i'm glad there wasn't anyone...if sumwan DID apppeared, i'd scream the daylight out of the whole movie theatre...coz moz prob, that "someone" isn't really anyone....

okk...i'm spooking myself out here....

but the show was great....there were those unbearable moments wif lotsa screaming where i had to be like Bethia...plucking my mp3 into my ears to drown the scary sound effects off...see? i'm being such a good Bethia-disciple!!haha...

my recommends to u guys who wanna watch mirrors...the twist at the end is great, altho the solution to the problem was kinda abrupt...a lil like wat u'd expect from an M.Night Shaymalan's movie, w/o the cheesy, lame rationale behind it of coz...

but if u have nothing n noone to watch it with u, i'd suggest go watch mamma mia instead...

coz i regretted watching mirrors alone....

altho i felt like i've achieved a special kind of achievement today...haha

this is blacque, out!! n shaking from her first solo horror movie experience!!!

2008-09-04T00:43:00.002+08:00

THUG -You a strait up ''Gangsta'' -Attractive personality -Loves those who love them. -Very! sexy. -Affectionate & Secretive. -Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. -Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! -A meaningful love life partner -Loves to get their way! -Unbelievable kisser! -Easily angered. -Able to cheer anyone up and make them laugh. -Very stubborn in the most way possible! -Loves to get noticed! -Willing to take risks for others. -Makes good choices. -Has a great fashion sense! -Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. -Outgoing and crazy at times! -Intelligent. -Can love as much as possible! -Hates insults. Loves compliments! -A very big flirt! Trustworthy. -Appreciative and returns kindness. -The best in bed out of ANY of these months!! -Hardly shows emotions. -Tends to bottle up feelings. -Observant and assesses others.

it describes me...got it frm a facebook quiz...but i'm not an aug baby...but it still describes me quite perfectly...haha....

altho i haf no idea about the "best in bed" thingy...haha...it'll be years till i get to experience tat maybe? wahaha....

"able to cheer anyone up and make them laugh"....maybe...other than that, i get the usual 'you-are-so-noisy-u-piss-the-hell-out-of-me' look....

bottle feelings up? yeah...sure...until they erupt...then chairs will grow wings and fly across the room...

observant and assess others...hell yeah...u guys better be careful with this one...coz i can read ppl like a book...whether there are typos, its not my fault....

i feel like listening to Yellow Card's Only One....currently, Your Guardian Angel is my earwax....wanna noe why?

...dun tell u....

XP

2008-09-03T03:50:00.002+08:00

oh wow...i didn't realize that i haven't been writing in here for over 3 mths now...haha...

so why the hell am i here tdy? coz i was checking out if i really wrote abt failing ME and OTIA before...the answer? nope. so Miss Ho Ruo Yun, you were completely being psychotic when u said u read abt it in my blog...haha...

ok...so now we get to the freaky part....

She was right on the spot.

i did fail my ME and OTIA...saw my results tdy...was feeling half and half about it...coz on one hand, i actually passed my PMKG and POA (oh...tat POA paper was truly hell...i spent one hour doing absolutely NOTHING coz i cudn't even go abt doin anything...blanked out...totalli) yep...the PMKG paper where i only wrote a short paragraph for a 25 mark question...i'm amazed at how i passed it at all...okok...so neither of my POA or PMKG grades are above 50, but oh well...i passed them...

the bad part is, i wrote sooooo much more for my otia as compared to my pmkg...and i flunk the paper...as in FLUNK THE PAPER...i swear this is a really unlucky event, coz my tests & assignments for OTIA were pretty well-done...i kinda scored...

so why the hell did i fail my OT?

as for ME, it was so expected, i remembered blowing a kiss to Mr Ting, saying cheerfully "See you next year, Mr Ting!!"

...okay...i didn't do that..there is nooooo way i'll ever do that...its TING!! hurhur...but the feelings of hopelessness were pretty much illustrated by the image i gave u...yep...i gave up on ME even before the exams were started...so now, i will truly be able to see ting again...haha...i wonder if i'll sleep this time too...

...no, wait...i bet if Mr Ting sees me in his class again next yr, he'll prolly say "ahh...she's sleepin this year too...?" haha

being a pioneer had been a valuable experience after all, eh? see? now i'm a full-fledge, cornified pro slacker.....where else in the world can u attain such great title if u weren't a pioneer, ryt?

so Miss Ho....are u a psycho or are u a psychic? lemme noe yeah? coz if its the latter, i wanna contact u before my exams next yr...see if u can figure out the questions....

but if its the earlier...stay away from me arh...

haha...jokin...we r brudders, aren't we? i'll go made wif u too...no worries bout tat...lolz!!

hmm...so wat else shud i say abt myself this time ard? i dun wanna say too much, but let's juz say...i'm fallin for someone faster than u can say "who is it?"

hurhur...aquarians and scorpios may be incompatible by the charts...and u'll prolly wanna avoid a scorpio if u r an aquarian...

...until u feel the sting of a scorpio's love...

...it gets u addicted....

...i am addicted.

so, to hell with those charts....

coz this pair will defy the laws of the stars.

2008-05-22T03:37:00.004+08:00

Half Time: I wanna kill Ferdinand. Man U was 1-0 up and he had to give away that goal to Lampard and Chelsea....Man U had been playing pretty good, with good ball possesion in the first half of the first half....that double unlucky attempt...it should have been another goal yo...mah...been a rough game...everyone roughing each other up...scholes with his bludeh nose....well, off to 2nd half now...Man U better win...Live up to the '99 Legend yo!!!

22nd May, 5.37am: MANCHESTER UNITED IS A DOUBLES CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE WON THE FRICKIN CHAMPIONS LEGUE!!! ITS VDS TO THE RESCUE AGAIN!!! OR RATHER, TERRY TO THE RESCUE!!!!!!!! OH GOODNESS!!! I'M HYPERVENTILATING!!! OH GOODNESS!!! THEY RE-CREATED THE '99 LEGEND!!! WAHAHAH!!! HOLY SHIT!! THAT PENALTY KICK OFF GOT ME BITING MY NAILS AND ALL....WHEN RONALDO MISSED IT, I TOT MAN U WAS OVER...BUT TERRY SLIPPED DUE TO THE HEAVY RAIN....THE RAIN!!! IT SAVED THE RED DEVILS!!! GOSH...BUT MAN OF THE MATCH...ITS GOTTA BE VAN DER SAR!!! HAHA...CHELSEA IS LOOKING AS IF THEY ARE MOURNING RIGHT NOW....THEY SHOULD ALRIGHT!!! THEY LOST IT DUE TO TERRY'S SLIP....DUN WURY TERRY...IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT....ITS JUZ THAT LADY LUCK DECIDED TO SWITCH SIDES AT THE LAST MINUTE....NAH....LAST SPLIT SECOND....OMG....NOW I REALLY CAN'T SLEEP....AWW....MAN U FORMED THE LINE OF HONOUR FOR CHELSEA....SEE? THIS IS WHY I LOVE FOOTBALL SO MUCH....YOU GET TO SEE BIG BOYS CRY THEIR EYES OUT IN FINAL MATCHES LIKE THIS....AND IT HAD BEEN A MATCH FULL OF ACTION....PLAYERS FALLING ALL OVER EACH OTHER, FIGHTING AND SCUFFLES...DROGBA SENT OFF!!!I CAN'T STOP RANTING...OH SHITZ...I'M SO FRICKIN HAPPY...ESTATIC...NO MORE THAN THAT...I THINK I MAY HAVE TORN A MY WOUND FROM SHOUTING WHEN VDS SAVED THE LAST PENALTY...OH SHIT....I HOPE THE STITCHES IN MY MOUTH DOESN'T TEAR AT MY WOUND....HELLL...BUT I'M HAPPY....MAN U ARE RED DEVILS TO THE CORE....AWWW!!!! WAS THAT GEORGE BEST LEADING MAN U PLAYERS TO THEIR MEDAL?? UWAAAAHH~~~FERGIE IS SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR RIGHT NOW....WELL HE SHOULD BE....MAN U REALLY DESERVED THIS....THEY REALLY PLAYED THEIR ASS OFF FOR THIS GAME...77% BALL POSSESSION...OH MY...WAT A GOOD VIEW OF GIGGS AND FERD LIFTING THE TROPHY....MAN U FANS OF THE WORLD REJOICE!!!!

MANCHESTER UNITED: CHAMPIONS OF THE UEFA CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINALS 07/08!!!!

...now thats my red devils....XD

2008-05-01T04:59:00.002+08:00

wow....Chelsea- Liverpool match is sooo much more interesting than the Man U- Barca match...Oo

Man U better do better than the Barca match in the finals...

finally done with modding the JE CR FC...had to placate a few parties here and there...

Maybe I should work as a mediator when i enter the working adult society (not looking forward to it)...

But then again, maybe i shouldn't...coz a lot of bull-shitting goes into my mediations...

Oh well...as long as both parties are happy....

I am REALLY sneaky person sometimes, desho?

2008-04-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

hmm...what can i say about today?

fun? happy? tiring?

well...its probably all of the above, but definitely NOT efficient...

studied in school again with wendy, ts, nad and beryll...

should have known better...

us gurls ended up talking like 95% of the time...

ts was doing the stuffs bethia and some of us were asking him, but we know he was listening with 100% attention too...thats why he can't seem to explain stuffs that well today....not like last week...he explained chp 7 of ME until i felt extremely motivated to study ME...for the first time since i took that course...haha...ts saiko desu!!

the 4 gurls were talking about anything and everything under the sun...(and i was snickering at bethia when she said that...muz be her talk mode rub off on me liao le...) nad, me n beryll were talking about pj stuffs...then, somehow we went on to handphones...and a whole lot of other stuffs (shampoos included)....no matter how i try to withdraw from the conversation, i find myself pulled back in less than a minute later...wahaha...studying with them is fun, but i really din study...

during lunch, i burnt my tongue...slurped up the boiling hot tom yum soup even though i was telling myself its hot...i guz my brain was realllly not functioning well....stared at cournot from the start until 5 hours later, then i asked ts...he explained to me within 5 minutes and i understood the thing i was trying to understand in the past 5 hours...should have asked him to explain right from the start ryt? haiz...

after beryll left, when na-chan was about to go home, somehow the topic of conversation turned to porn and sex...apparently wendy is seriously naive, pure and innocent...when we heard that, the 3 of us gave her that disbelieved blank look....then she ask us to teach her...and immediately the 3 of us went like "its ok...dun watch ok...u'll regret it...its very hard for us to find such innocent people, so we dun want to corrupt u..."

thats right...we were trying desperately keep her in the dark....the 3 of us corrupted people...when na-chan left for work, only me n ts were stuck with wendy's bombarding question...n worst, everytime she ask us what this or that means (she was practically begging us to teach her), ts n i look at each other, communicate somehow thru that simple look and we both shook our heads, refusing to explain anything to her...it was funny...i received the bigger portion of her pokings though....during those times, when i turn to ts for help, he juz shrugged n looked away...that bugger!! leave me stranded with a red face trying to explain some of the terms n ideas to wendy....hurhur...not fun lor...

we talked (me n ts were avoiding) about that topic for the last one hour i was in school...diao...but it was fun...i'm surprised at how much i knew...haha...oh well, who says virgins are supposed to be innocent-minded anyway...??

oh...by the way, the highlight of the day was me n na-chan achieving full manzai comedy duo status...

beryll: I'm goin down to get something for awhile. u guys want anything?
blacque na-chan: (in unison) why are you going down?
blacque (turning to na-chan) : ehh!! we said that in unison!! could it be that we are...
blacque na-chan (in unison + the hand sign): ...in destiny??!
silence in the frozen group....3 hard, cold stares...3 jaws dropping...blacque n na-chan were already laughing like crazy
the other 3:
what was that!!!??? (beryll)
for awhile there, the temperature dropped below freezing point!! (wendy)
i dun really know what happen to you 2 liao....you guys watched too much japanese right?? (ts)
blacque was simply laughing till she teared up....haha...that was the peak point of the day...

oh...n have i mentioned that i have a new guy's hand/fingers fetish that started eversince i was in my tacchon-streak (few months ago...)? i realize i can't tear my eyes away from some of the guys' fingers lately...especially if the hands are big, and the fingers are long....like tacchon's (drummer's fingers), ryo's (i replayed that finger scene 15 times....and it was only a few split seconds), sometime ago, some guy's in the mrt (didn't stop staring until he put his hands in his pocket....he wasn't facing me though)...

and moz recently, i discovered juz now...

...ts's...

simply couldn't help staring at his fingers while he was sleeping juz now...got me thinking
"they are basketballer's fingers...fits my fetish exactly..."
...then i blushed like crazy...

--""

....thank god noone caught that blush...

yabai ne...?

2008-04-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

what do u do when u get too many nice coments from ur readers?

you go on writing.

without regard for your finals coming up.

i'm in deep shit.

how many years have i been saying this? but i'm still here.

dun u ever wonder why isit that when u r struggling ur very best to work hard, there'll be tons of other stuffs to do that appear like magic, all of a sudden?

like writing a fanfic...
watching your fave actor's drama...
looking up lyrics...
looking up vids...
mod-ding the group...
handling all the crazy fangurl wars that had to appear at this time...
watching ur mna u lagging behind blackburn....
writing in ur blog...
juz delaying ur sleep time...

thinking about him...

ehh?

where did the last one come from?

haha...

shhh...its a secret...XD

oh...n i dunno y, but y am i always excited for bethia whenever her bodybuilding twins come for otia class? i mean, i find hunky guys a total turn off...so y do i get excited as well?

i tell u y...

coz u shud look at the way she squeals sometimes...

its aldhsfhlkjsd;f cute...haha...

message to bethia: i chickened out in the last OTIA lecture, but i'll try to pass him ur number next time yeah? lolz!! if i dun chicken out again, that is...

2008-03-22T00:24:00.002+08:00

currently waiting for my Jr subbed video to finish downloading...33Mb in 10 minutes...2 years ago, i wouldn't have complained at all...coz i was using dial up...now, i'm complaining about the speed of my 3k Mbps broadband speed...how ungrateful can i get??

this week had been quite good...no more exam stress although i'm already starting on my revisions again...one week break had been enough, desho? then there was the exciting experience of going to the Management House for my ME UOL revision lecture...i was super hyper the whole day, coz when i came in the morning, the walk from the bustop to the MH was extremely good..i was strolling and enjoying the blue sky...then there was this one scene i remember clearly...i was goin past one of these super rich landed property and the image i saw was that of a wooden construction (i think it was the patio or verandah) and there was palm trees and the bright blue sky in the back ground...in that split second, i just felt as if i'm no longer in singapore...hawaii maybe...or california...wish i had stopped to capture the scene on my hp cam...then i can share it here...but then the girl behind me might think i'm crazy...or if the owner caught me, he might sue me by the millions for taking pictures of his house...whatever...lets just say i seem to be the only one in my group who enjoyed the long walk into the MH...

Tobias was good...at least he went thru the chps again and isn't like some other ang moh lecturer *coughscoughsamoscoughs* who assumes we are supposed to have the whole subject guide memorized by heart after completing the syllabus just 3 weeks before...i made good progress with the 1st 2 chaps...me and nad:

me: i feel so intelligent now!! don't you?
nad: yeah!! me too!! i finally can master the whole game theory!!
me: yeah...me too!! we are intelligent, ne?
nad: yeah!!
me: yosh!!...but...thats also becoz we've read the chp 4-5 times before this, right...?
nad: urm....yeah...
me: and it took us the 6th time to actually get it...
nad: ouh....hmm...
me: ....we are not so intelligent after all, ne?...

it was a totally tsukkomi - boke act that was really on the cue...i swear, after interacting with nad-chan for the whole sem, we can actually make a good comedy duo...the things we say to each other sometimes...i guz only we both can understand...guz we both watch too much JE and jap stuffs...haha...

ystdy the walk in wasn't so nice coz its a cold and rainy morning...dreary...and i didnt even get to see the sky (dunno what colour it was) coz i had my umbrella up...wanted to pull out my muffler...seems like the perfect weather to wear it, but then again, its singapore...people will think you are crazy for wearing a muffler, no matter what the weather is...so i didn't...good thing i had my trademark red jacket with me....i really love that jacket...its really become my trademark...even jacqueline whom i just got to know ytdy knows where i'm seated by my red jacket on my seat...i wonder if anyone calls me red riding hood behind my back...? notice how i omitted the "little"...?

ouh yah...one of the reasons i like revision classes is that you get to make new friends...on the first day, i made friends with jacq...previously, i always think of her as a fragile soul...after meeting her, i stilll think of her as a fragile soul...haha...on the second day, i made friends with teck shen and his 2 girl friends...with the 2 girlfriends, i talked with them as if i've known them for the past 10 years, but i never asked them for their names...how baka can i get??

after the lecture, i opened my big mouth and said i wanted to watch a show...ziwan immediately suggested rule #1...although i wasn't planning to watch it coz it doesn't seem horrifying enough for a horror show, i agreed...coz
1) i juz dun wana go home
2) i dun mind watching shawn yue in action...i NEVER minded watching shawn yue in action anyway...he's so kakkoii...
3) i was craving for the ayam penyek...sorry bethia...from now onwards, everytime you go town with me, i'm gonna suggest that ayam penyek place every single time...not that u'd mind, i think...

so we went town to watch rule #1...4 of us...me, ziwan,bethia and teck shen...bethia called ganesh during the bus ride, so he joined us as well...

ziwan was funny...she kept on complaining her stomach isn't equal...on side is bulging and the other isn't...and she made bethia touch her tummy at the traffic junction...me and ts just looked at each other and grinned...after we reach cine, we bought the tickets...and encountered some trouble with the toy-in-a-capsule machine...ziwan called up the company...so ts will get his $1 cheque in one month's time....rofl!! n we actually sat down at food junction so that he can play with his silver shit top...what are we? kindergarten kids?? but it was funny, so i enjoyed it...too bad my energy and hyperness was dissipating fast by then, so i had this permanent "i'm bored" look all the time...gomen ne, gurls...i was really enjoying my time with you guys...that was just my default "i'm tired" face...lolz...

then we went taka...the two were shopping...okay..the trouble with me is that i dun shop like other normal girls around me...i can just stand at the entrance of the shop, scan everything, see nothing i like, then walk off to the next....or the most, i'll take a quick tour around the shop, if something catches my attention, i pick it out with 2 fingers, turn it over once, check the price and then put it back again if i'm not buying it...basically, my shopping can be done in 5 minutes...so imagine me, goin into the shop with bethia and ziwan...i wanted to be out before they were even halfway through...so i went for a 2nd tour...and a 3rd tour...and a 4th tour...in the end, i decided that messaging nad in the middle of the shop is far more interesting...so when they suggested (squeal, rather) to go zara and mango, i told them i wanna go kino...i totally acted like a wet blanket ne? i think i spotted their face change (like "you dun like shopping with us meh?"), but i cudn't stand it...anyway, its really my ritual to drop by kino everytime i go taka...and i HAD to check out if the latest JE mags are shipped...so i went off with ts...only had 25 minutes to look around, but that enough...ouh...by the way, 25 minutes in kino is never enough...am i a girl or a nerd?

ts is amazing...one minute he was complaining he can't find a book, the next i saw him getting hyper over a gamer's edition of the guiness world records that costed a bludeh 32 bucks...that guy is such a child, he really reminds me of peter pan sometimes...but then again, wasn't it me who said i never wanna grow up? so his childishness wasn't that bad for me...quite cute actually...i can totally imagine tegoshi being like this...XD

ganesh joined us just after that...and we all walked to cine back again...surprisingly, quite a number of people went to watch rule #1...okay, i'll just do a quick highlight of the movie and what was happening durin the movie...

* ganesh insisted on the corner seat...so i was stuck between ts and bethia by default...
* ts was complaining about the show during the first 20 minutes and we get to the washing machine part...he got shocked and kept quiet after that...
* in the bedroom sex-scene, we were all laughing coz we couldn't differentiate between fiona xie's and shawn yue's legs...
* halfway through the movie, i realized that bethia was watching the show with her mp3 player plugged on...no wonder i didn't hear her scream...
* the sound effects were scarier than the ghosts...bethia made a good choice...
* possesed or not, its impossible for 5 girls to tie their hair to each other so that they are linked to each other...i saw your loop hole, mr kelvin tong...
* the whole show was slow and pretty boring in some parts, but the twist at the end will leave you discussing for the next 2 hours...look out for the interesting twist at the end...
* bethia cried at the end...first time i see anyone crying at a horror show...is it just her being super sensitive or just me being super non-emotional? i wonder sometimes...

after that we ate ayam penyek...the sambal blachan this time isn't too hot like the last time although it was still quite hot...i finished 2 servings of sambal blachan this time...XD

we wanted to eat mac ice cream...then stuff happens and we end up buying mac ice cream at robinson's basement and walking back to dhoby ghaut...honto ni gomen ne minna-san...i really didn't mean to be a wet blanket....but i was seriously walking like captain jack sparrow by then...tired+lack of sleep = me walking like jack sparrow by the way...

so we all went home instead...super zonked out when i reached home, but still managed to bath and have a lil conversation with my mum...was determined to go sleep the minute i reach my bed, but decided against it....instead, i updated my journal entry in my personal diary...the one that contained the juicier stuffs that i'll never write in here...i really cheirsh my diaries...btw, its in plural form coz since i started writing in my yellow diary in march last year, i gone over 3 different books since then...one year later, and i'm now in my fourth diary...amazing, ne?

tdy i decided not to go visit my grandma's grave with my parents...i wanna, but my legs and eyelid felt like lead...in the evening, i went to my second cousin's house...she's only 21 and she's getting engaged...i feel sooo pathetic...i'm 22 and i'm still single...haiz..studies are more important, ne? i'll wait patiently for someone to capture my attention till then...

should be studying poa right now, but been stuck on comp ever since i got back home...now i'm too tired to study poa...but i dun think i'm to tired to write my fanfic though...i'm so biased in my priorities, ne? but she87 gave me seriously encouraging reviews for my ryohkura ff, and now i'm pumped up once again for my shige's ff...i'll see about it...

2008-03-13T00:19:00.003+08:00

ahh....the prelims are finally over yesterday...but i'm not enjoying it....instead i'm feeling extremely drained right now...of coz, maybe its partly due to the fact that i didn't take the last paper which is managerial econs...which is the one i didn't pay attention to at all through out the whole year...which is why i totally couldn't do a single question from the tutorials...which is why i'm partly glad i had an extremely valid reason why i didn't take it...although it cozed me serious dis-utitlity...see, the reason why i didn't take it was becoz my tonsils are back...meaning an up and down, yoyo fever and a bad case of serious vomiting...it sucks, but i still went to school to take the me paper without being prepared at all...all i wanted was to feel the satisfaction of walking out of the exam hall...its a great feeling, you know, walking out of the exam hall after the last paper...you feel that bounce in your steps and your shoulder feels as if they weigh one tonne lighter...who cares if you handed in a blank answer sheet right? doing just one question won't get your paper marked anyway...thats what i thought...thats what i wanted...so i came early to school at 845 and went straight to the toilet and started vomiting...i know...its disgusting, but i was holding that nausea all the way from yishun...which is basically the whole journey to school...but i was still determined to take the paper...no...enter the exam hall and leave after the first hour...alas, the fever chills got the better of me...i was torn between staying on and going home after that, but there was no choice for me...so i decided that since its still 45 minutes before the paper starts, i better get home before my regret gets bigger...so in the end i went home...and vomited again as soon as i reached home...i had glorious plans of a list of many many things to do on the comp when the exam was over, but none of it came to light till now...i didn't even go berserk on CR...in fact, all i managed was the last 3 episodes of Yukan Club and episode 49 of Shippuuden....other than that, i just felt like curling up underneath my comforter with my jacket on and my socks on and my muffler around my neck, waiting for the fever to subside....maybe its partly due to the horrendously rainy weather but i was really feeling anti-social...and super tired...even now, as i'm typing this i'm actually feeling extremely drained...similar to the post-caffeine effect i always get after drinking a cup of coffee...al my energy is just sapped away...when nisa called my hp i wasn't around to pick up...but i didn't feel like returning her missed call either...like i said, i'm in no mood to go out and have fun, or talk a lot, for that matter...by the way, i think i'm becoming more and more reserved, which may or may not be a bad thing, depending on how you see it...i can't even remember the last time i was acting so bludeh hyper...well, actually that was just last week, but that is due to the can of coffee i was drinking (i really think caffeine has an extra weird effect on me...it gives a powerful boost for the few hours and after that it leave me totally drained...a bit like kakashi's sharingan...) anyway,i'm definitely quieter these days...i don't talk much anymore...especially when i'm in a group of more that 3 people...i'll just stay quietly in the background and just watch them as they talk....i wonder what happened to me...? did something happen that made me like this or had i always been like this? i don't really think i had always been like this...aybe its the group i hang out with? the more dominant the others are, the more inclined i am to just take the back seat and be entertained by their chatters without me having to crack my brain to think of stuffs to say to try to fit into the group...ehh...? blacque isn't always this reserved, ne? actually if i really think hard about it, i think it started ever since i got into the je fandom...i started drifting away from the people around me and the things around me coz i get sucked into my own world...the friends around me didn't share my interest, so i turned to the thread instead...and became less and less used to talking....okay, the situation isn't really that bad...but i'm definitely talking less....its definitely the people i mix around with this year...i can count them on my finger...and they prefer talking among themselves, so i was contented with just sitting there and watch them talk...

i out-talked myself this time...i think u can tell that this entry is just full of random tots...not very organized...i'm tired, thats why....and for the sake of me, i just wish that this tonsil will just go away so i can eat normally and not have to deal with the chills of the fever...

2008-02-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

juz tryin to divide my time more thoughtfully now....altho it doesn't seem as if much tots went into the process...how does "study by day, internet by night" sounds like to you? what am i? Batman? a superhero that is trying to save the CR world from evil subbers who wouldn't let their works be uploaded on streamin sites? haha...maybe i'm doin too much...

in fact, i do think i'm doin too much stuffs right now...lemme see...

Things I'm doin currently:

1) Trying to study for my Prelims
2) Trying to finish my fanfic asap
3) Trying to get the JE CR Fanclub forums kicking
4) Trying to knock some sense of responsibilities into my fellow mods
5) Trying to get my room cleaned up asap
6) Trying my hardest to squeeze in as much comp time into my busy schedule as possible
7) Trying to save up money
8) Trying to find out how the hell I spent $400 in one month
9) Trying to lose weight
10) Trying to get my Ryo-lookalike out of my mind

10 things...It doesn't seem that much, but my life right now does seem pretty packed to me...of all the 10 things, items number 1,2,3,8,10 are the ones taking up the most brain space...

Especially item no. 10...He is seriously taking up toooo much brain space that its startin to be a bit tiresome really....i seriously dunno why this kind of thing HAVE to happen at times nearing the exam period...why didn't i just notice him earlier this semester??!! then i'll have more free-time to wait around hoping to see him ne?

BLACQUE IS SUCH AN IRRITATING PIECE OF SHIT!!

ehh...item #8 is also worrying me...i seriously dunno where the $400 went off to....i din even buy anything expensive!! maybe i withdrew too much...whatever it is, i'm tryin to find a way to live on $50 for a month...for the first time i'm really feelin the pinch of the high transport costs...

item # 3 is actually quite fun...I do the planning, the rest do what I say...not that i'm workin alone though...q_h is helpin me with the plannings, only b'coz i decided that it won't be nice if i make all the decisions...would really like to add her as my fave buddy along with hokuto, but since i'm the leader, i can't show any favourtism ne? sometimes it does sucks to be at the top...

item #2...haha...this one surprised me...my fanfic actually got a lot of support!! it was a real pleasant surprise...not that i'm gonna let you guys read the fanfic though...its for fans only...only fans can take the yaoi stuffs i wrote...the hard thing was they kept on asking for hotter stuffs...as if the ones i wrote were not hardcore enough...but seriously...u can't imagine me writing yaoi stuffs ne? well, don't then...i prefer not to change the image you guys have of me...its the reason why i din wanna let nadiah-chan read it either...that fanfic is bound to make u ppl see me in a different light...

finally we get to item #1...which is what i should be doin ryt now...ahh...i guz i shud start ryt away ne? doin POA for the whole of last week till ytdy had been fun...but now its time to study for my PMKG test *Shige lookalike!!* and ME test *Ryo lookalike*...

by the way, this morning i came extra early to POA class to make friends with him (Ryo)...like i was RUSHING to get to school by 815am...only to find that he didn't come for POA today...SUPER DISAPPOINTED...but saw him MC-ing beside the koi pond during lunch, so it eased my frustrations a lil...i feel so helplessly dumb and stupid now...makes me wish i can just stick to one...eye candies are okay, coz they are juz nice to look at...but crushes are ass-holicaly, bimbotically tiresome...of coz it doesn't help that he is bethia's and ganesh's friend...and him coming over to talk to them ytdy while i just stood there in front of him, making starry eyes...complete idiot i am...

i guess i can put the blame on them for not introducing me...that would have saved me a whole lot of time...and brain space....but on the other hand, ytdy i was walking...nooo...BOUNCING home...like litterally...the bounce in my steps was better than Nike Air...how bimbotic can i get?

okay...i think my sentence structures are startin to become absolutely random...maybe i should start studyin now...

2008-01-30T14:02:00.000+08:00

I swear i can NOT cry when everyone else around me is crying, but I can cry at the most stupidest stuffs that aren't directly linked to me...like when everyone is crying around my grandma at the hospital, i die die try to hold back my tears...but yesterday, after reading Tacchon's J-web entry for the 26th and 27th, I juz couldn't stop crying for him...till i went to sleep...its so bludeh sad...made me think..."this is the real life of these guys that girls from the JE fandom like me are crazy about..."...i totally pitied him...think i'll still the trans from lj and paste it here...

Tacchon J-Web from 01.26 and 01.27
01/26/2008 It's all very sudden, but my mom is in the hospital.
Today is the day of her surgery.
Because I have musical today so I can only stay in Teigoku Theatre and pray (for the success of the surgery).

This morning, when I walked into the theatre, there were a lot of white doves.
(The surgery) will be successful for sure.

So, this is what my job is like, once again, I realized.

I was really weak when I was young.
I often stayed in the hospital and had surgeries.
(After anesthesia was applied), my body became numb,I would slowly fall into unconsciousness.
Even though the surgery happened when I was not consciouness, it was still very scary.
Because of that, on the edge of losing my consiousness, I would cry out for my mom.
Dad would seem worried.
I was really scared of staying in the hospital.
When the night came, and the visit time was over, I would use the public phone and call my mom.
I still remembered that it was very hard on her also.
She even said "I hope I can take your place, and be the one who is sick."
It was Dad who told me about Mom's surgery.
She did not want me to worry so she kept it a secret.
When I heard this, I was really scared.
Grandpa has already gone to heaven.
The surgery this time is only a simple one, and then she will recover.
I cannot bear to lose another loved one again.
But there will be a day when I become all by myself.
I don't know what is right.
I can't talk to others about things like this
But if it's talking to myself, I can manage to get them out.

All of us, what, who, do we exactly live for?

01/27/2008

Mom is okay.
Sorry for worrying everyone.
Maybe I shouldn't have written that entry, but after I wrote it, I became much calmer.
Sorry for letting everyone read my entry.
Even though someone suggested that since I will be doing Endless Shock, I should extend my Kura's Mas until March.
But I said I will probably too busy to update so I shouldn't do it.
Then someone suggested that I can update whenever I want in the Sentai Eito Ranger Corner. But after I thought about it carefully, it is best for me not do it.
Can I have a personal page?
What to do?
Money~~Come discuss with me (smiley face)

*******Note: Since the Sentai Eito Ranger Corner is only once a week, Tacchon wasn't supposed to update on the 26th. But I guess he was too worried/flustered/nervous that he had to let it out. So he decided to write on his J-web (since he found it hard to talk to others about it).

I cried so hard after reading those two entries...
I so wanna hug Tacchon now...

P.S: dun wury about the sentai ranger thingys...it takes a JE fan to understand that anyway...

2008-01-16T13:23:00.001+08:00

shootz...i should do my otia notes for the test later ne?

so why the hell am i still here...

coz i juz discovered mise's online shop...

holy shit...

someone buy me YamaPi's Russ-K jacket please....

edit:i finished my test quickly without undertanding a single thing that i wrote so that i can get back here asap again....

....how smart can i get...?

2008-01-07T16:21:00.000+08:00

i'm super tired right now...been shuttling back and forth to TTSH since the past one week...should i go later? guz until my grandma is out of ICU, i should make it a point to drop by everyday, ne?

this mornin had been super frustrating for me...woke up feeling as if i hadn't slept a wink...den it was followed by this puking feeling that i can't get rid off...walked out of the house with the strong urge to show my middle finger at everyone...at kranji, i wanted to fart at the guy beside me...he didn't do anything, it was jus me feeling super pissed with the sick feeling...so i contented myself a lil by letting out a small, discreet burp...btw, there is noooooooo way my fart is linked to my burp...the farting feeling juz disappeared...if u think i meant that my fart became converted to a burp, u are a complete asshole with nothing but shit for brain...i'm not a fart converter lah...

in my frustration at all the uncles and aunties squeezing in, i tried to put on the biggest show of rebellion that i can manage...

I ATE MY LOLLIPOP

how pathetic can i get? to let the 'ME' as dictated by society to over-run the 'I' in me...but i was ME...not I...so even in the full blast of I's inner rebellion, ME decided the better for myself in the face of society...if you dun understand the shit i juz wrote, study hard and take up Sociology for a uni degree...u'll die, i tell u...u'll simply die from boredom...

the foul mood lightened up a lil into PMKG class...altho i was bitterly disappointed i din get to see **him**, at least the Shige-lookalike (that doesn't look like Shige at all) was there to mend my bitterly regretful heart...

so i should be happy, right?

I should.

but the fact is, I'm not.

Coz i didn bring my specs today.

meaning i'm as half-blind as a half-blind bat...(or maybe a half-cured bat, since bats are already blind...)

meanin i cudn't get to see the Shige-lookalike's face

which is stupid

which is even stupider, coz i couldn't see the screen or even Patricia's eyes even

that made it triple-stupid

coz i came to school for nothing

well,other den sitting in front of this comp, that is...

but that means i came to school for all the wrong reasons

which had just made this day a very stupid day

and its not even April Fool's yet

wth

i should just sit here since 830 am....

2008-01-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

POST # 100!!!

eh...what a way to start off this blog in this new year...and i swear it wasn't planned at all!! juz logged in to my acct and poof! it shows up that i've written (and crapped thru) 99 worthy (and unworthy) precious entries over the last...*count by the fingers*...4 years?okay...by average, thats a measly 25 entries per year...but it wasn't like that, ne?i went thru brief periods of no blogging and then there was that shocking (not so actually...) and totally dramatic (i'm seriously overstating things here...) decision to go on a sudden blog and MSN hiatus (for those of u who still dunno what hiatus means, its a study break...of coz, i wasn't studying during MY hiatus....) been sulking and brooding over what seemed an eternity...can't believe i was actually being sulky, even online...

in a way, i was partly trying to get away from the (increasingly irritating) blogging and chatting addiction...but it turned out that that decision threw me into a whole new addiction that totally took me unaware...the CR addiction....it was terrible...simply terrible...for the most part of 2007, i was losing sleep (by the hours) every single night....sometimes i didnt' sleep at all...every single minute was either spent on CR or doing some kind of weird video/medley/subbing projects or avatars or icons...all dedicated to my newly-found craze of Johnny's Entertainment Fandom...every single thing i did online was directly-related to them...and i seriously mean EVERYTHING...this is seriously the one time in my life so far that i became so obssessed over anything at all...it even beat my any other crazes...in fact, i can't think of any other craze...this is seriously THE CRAZE...ironically, bad as it was (making me walk around in school like a zombie and sleeping in every single lecture, especially Soci) i enjoyed every single minute of my obssesion...the craving for more and more of the guys were overwhelming at times...especially when i went into one-of-the-guys streak...up to date, i've been through 7 streaks now, with Ohkura being the current one...

that was the basic summary of my 2007, ne?a lil pathetic, but i had a really good year...i even got away scot-free for my heinous crime (of choosing CR over my last minute muggings the night before the papers for my final exam) by a mere hair's breadth...it was almost miraculous (looking at how i was so confident of failing every single paper with my nocturnal (non) studying modes)...i take that back...i think the examiners in UOL had mixed my result with someone else's...i'm sure there's a UOL student somewhere in this world who had to repeat every single subject for his/her year one topics coz our results were exchanged...i sympathise for that person...even more if that person is a frickingly hardworking student....BUT TOO BAD!! i got away with ur results...

so what are my resolutions for the new year of 2008? well, i have to say that i already broke my first resolution...and that was to be serious about my other resolutions....yep...and its only the second day of the year...(i had to check that...i kept on thinking that it is the third!! i'm unecessarily fast this year,ne?)

*SIDE REMARK: as i'm typing this, the girl beside me keep on looking at my comp INDISCREETLY!!WTH???!!! look at your own comp screen for goodness sake...she's even doin it to the girl on her other side...i wonder if a psycho is seated beside me...who in the world would do such a thing??!! indiscriminately some more...siao...its frickin irritating i tell u...*

eh....so goin back to my entry, my other resolutions include working harder than last year...its the same resolution every year...but this time i WANT to work harder...i'm not just SAYING it...i WANT to...the scare of anticipating my exam results last year was one of the most heart-stopping moments i had in my life...so i dun want that to repeat again....so i'm trying my best to be a lil more hard-working...its another countdown for me isn't it? countdown to the prelims (first)...which is in 2-3 month's time...but like i said i'm already creating a crack in this resolution of mine...evidence? here i am, seated in front of the comp...initially, the moment i came into the library, i went to one of the cubicles and took out my POA and actually started my studying...but then i decided to print my OTIA asignment before the library becomes packed...so what happened when my fingers touch the keyboard? it stay glued to the keyboard...i ended goin back to my cubicle, pack all my stuffs in a flash, go to where i'm seated right now, download flash player and started streaming the whole Johnny's Countdown...

...which i've anticipating for the past one month...

...which i have been itching to watch for the past 24 hours ++...

...which i had been watching for the past one hour with a silly grin plastered on my face (i love the collabos!!!and Subaru's awesome hair that seemed so similar to Shige's!!)...

...which i had just finished watching while writing this paragraph...

...i'm satisfied right now, ne?

...i should be able to move on, plaster that crack in my resolution, plug off the headphone from the comp, close all windows, clear all the history, snatch my bag and walk back to the cubicles, ne?

...i should be doing that right now, ne?

yes, i should..

but its virtually impossible...i'm having a keen urge to watch the whole countdown again...and post in the forums...and post in the group forums...and post in everyone's GB to return their new year wishes...to check out the meaning of a word that i meant to look up, but which i can't remember which word it was now...

...to just stay stuck in front of the comp up till OTIA class at 3.30...

*ANOTHER SIDE NOTE: she had the cheek to stare again!! so this time, i stared back at her...wonders of all wonders, she looked at me as if she wasn't guilty at all, and turned to look at the other girl's screen...this is seriously scary...i muz admit i'm a lil freaked out by her strange behaviour...is it fate that sent such an annoying pest to me to drive me away from the comp...?if so, then fate is cruel indeed....i was deprived of one week's worth of comp time yo!!*

eh...i think i shall change to another comp...so long for now...

2007-12-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes people ask what i dun like....like really really dun like...so i tell them, if its about the human character, then there are a lot...i'm the type to really observe people...in fact, i can judge how a person is feeling based on his/her facial expressions...its like there for the world to see, so i always wonder why is it that some people can be quite KY (urm....its a very famous Jap word to use right now...can't quite remeber the exact word, but basically it means can't read the situation) at certain times...

so then people continue to ask me what else i dun like....and i can only say 2 words that come to my mind....

"Pineapple" and "Caterpillars"

i dun understand how anyone can eat something as tangy and tongue-biting as pineapple...juz typing about it right now makes me feel as if i'm licking a thousand needles....the only pineapple i can eat are those found on top of a hawaiian pizza...coz there is no tang to it...the tangiest of a pineapple flavour that i will endure is that in a can of red bull...other than that, dun even come to me with a slice of pineapple...i can't even see it, lest taste or smell it...

the second thing i hate are caterpillars...now, everyone knows that i am an animal-lover...i love all that comes from the animal kingdom (excluding certain types of humans..)....all except for this weird thing that god created, which Man had named as a caterpillar...okay...if i can bring myself to stare at a picture of one long enough, it might be possible for me to find them quite cute...but then again, i can't bring myself to stare at one...it makes me all squirmish, as if there are thousands of them crawling all over my body...i think its simply the way they move...same goes for worms...gaawd...my hairs are standing on ends juz thinking about it...

other than those two, i dun find myself hating stuffs that much...i may hate, say...the rain, for example....its so wet and cold, its impossible to walk freely when u are outside...even with an umbrella, its such a hassle...which is why i rather choose to walk on a freaking hot day like just now instead of taking the bus...but then, i couldn't bring myself to say that i hate the rain 100%...coz when i really sit down and think about it, this planet is only existing in its present state becoz of the rain...it is truly a gift that is only available on Earth...we wun get to live up till today had there been no rain...so, in a way, i'm pretty thankful for the rain too...juz that its a hassle....but i dun hate it as much as i hate Pineapples and Caterpillars....

ahh...its time for me to go home right now...it'll be quite awhile till i can next log on to the comp, so i've loaded and stuffed myself with loads and loads of K8 vids to my memory...if it is possible, i wanna declare to the whole world that i am officially smitten to pieces by Ohkura....never has it occured to me that anyone can look so smexy and super duper hot while banging his heart out on the drums....kept watching their Do You Agree perf juz now....simply amazing....simply amazing....how i wish Ohkura's doppleganger is beside me right now...god knows what i'll do...ahh...simply can't get his solo out of my mind...beautiful beautiful solo...Butterfly I Love....strange title for a song, but wait till u hear the melody...its even better than his Mamoritai....

ahh...Blacque had fallen for the Drummer Boy...

2007-12-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

urm...here i am again...in the middle of the school library, writing my blog...albeit pathetic i muz add...

okay...i think i'm a lil too obssesed with my JE guys...been walking around and seeing JE look alikes everywhere...i was actually staring at one of the school admin staffs coz i think he looks like my latest heartthrob Ohkura...i'm the worst...seriously...

so if i am to count correctly, i have 3 JE look-alikes in school...Wth...i have crushes on the most weird guys possible...am i supposed to have crushes at this age even? wth...this is the reason why one shouldn't stay single for too long....

ytdy i was in a super hyper mood...i finally get around to do my POA exercises...i spent like 6 hours in wdlnds library for the first 3 chapters, and the result was super goood!!! everything balanced for the first time in my POA life!!! i must have looked damn silly, pumpin my fist in the air everytime i got them balanced...haha...POA is gonna be my fave subject i think...we'll see...the first 3 chps aren't that complicated u see...

ehh...my butt feels super tired now...been sitting on this chair since the past 3 hours....just waiting and waiting for Shige's SP to load fully...but up till now, i only manage to watch like only the first 8 minutes....wth...but it is to be expected ne? afterall, i spent 4 bludeh hours in this darned library just to watch 45 minutes of my Yukan Club....

okay...gotta go for OTIA...dang~ i haven't finish even 10 minutes of my Shige SP yo!!

2007-11-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

this is embarassing...writing your blog in school...but i've no other choice, so here it goes...

haha...i should be studying...really...where is the best place to study if not the library, right? but no....here i am, in the best environment and mood to study...and i'm stuck to the comp screen....for like the past 4 hours....since lunch...i'm the best....took me 4 hours to catch up with one 45-min episode of yukan club....oh well... at least i watched the one with Kei in it....*spazzing moment*

met up with RY for lunch juz now...so for awhile, that sad/disturbed feeling i've been feeling for the past few days was evaporated for a while...thank you brudder for bein lame when it comes to me...i'll look forward to our plan next week to meet up...

i think i'll be really meditating in front of the school comp the next few weeks....so much for using this no-comp time to study hard...blah!! i haven't even start studying for my 3 tests next week!! yabai ne? nvm...i shall try my best to do it...except i'm wondering how to do it in that nuthouse....maybe u'll see me meditating in woodlands library too...so anyone who wanna study, u are most welcome to join me there....and u'll probably end up looking at me sleep....

life without my comp is "killing" me faster than i thought...thank god for this school comp...

eh...i feel like eating cold soba and teriyaki unagi again....even better, i wanna eat onigiri...eh? its just onigiri, right? such a simple food, yet its setting my stomach on full growling mode....

sometimes i wish i can write as inspiringly as Pi...his entries...they are just amazing....noone can ever inspire me to fight on in life with so much positivism like he does...goodness...Pi is really the man....the only who can inspire and motivate me to study hard...just read another round of his journals...and now i'm dying to study my ME and OTIA....such profound impact....simply awesome....

i think from now onwards, i wanna end my blogs on a positive note too, if its possible....

so everyone, if you read my entry, please remember to do ur best in all you do...be it when you are mugging for that darned test, or you are taking a penalty kick, or simply trying to finish your mom's worst cooking ever, please do your best...you will definitely feel the rewards of satisfaction later....i shall promise to do my best too!! till my next meditation in front of the school comp, this is blacque signing off!!!

2007-11-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

HAHA!!

JUZ NOW I HAD THE BEST LUNCH IN SCHOOL!!!

seriously....for the first time in this year, i felt that lunchtime was a memorable one...

even now i wished i hadn't gone for ME....

coz even now i am still in a mood to fight.

YES!!

FIGHT!!

haha...i think Bethia would have written in her blog too...

okay...

this is what happened....

The three of us (me, bethia and ziwan) were looking for seats for lunch...and bethia was already in a mood to tell any NP students who crossed her path to get out of the way...(okay...get out of the seats...) of coz, i didn't think she was serious...

so we walked into the stinky cafe and saw a whole row of empty seats that was not booked...the only soul there was this girl who is clearly from NP coz she was looking in the NP direction everytime someone come by...

anyway, bethia was already in this complaining state, rolling her eyes at us as me and ziwan were laughing...she kept on going "whole row..??"...the thing i am wondering up till now is why didn't we budge from that place?....maybe Bethia was waiting to see if the NP frens will show up soon ( and i think she was meaning REALLY soon...)

during the whole time we were hanging around that row, i think at least 4-5 other groups of people came to the row, only to be deterred away by that NP girl who told them the whole row was booked...okay...so i admit...i wasn't that affected by the whole thing..i was more like "alright...why dun we juz look for other seats..?"...i wasn't thinking too much about it really...but i think both bethia and ziwan were ignoring me...so i stayed with them...

by then, i think we had caused quite a scene...coz i noticed this group of probably NP guys looking at us...moz probably they were also deterred off earlier by the NP girl...then, somehow two of them appeared in front of us...i think they were trying to act hero and help us tell the girl off...and i think that was the one that changed the whole course of events...

course of events (as i remember...not so accurate of coz...)

guy (talking to us): we came earlier juz now and she said the same thing...
NP girl: i'm sorry, but i came earlier and i've reserved the whole row..
bethia: whole row? WHOLE ROW? YOU BOOKED THE FRICKIN WHOLE ROW?? (voice rising)
NP girl: yes...i booked them for...
bethia (cuts in): where are your friends? i dun see them?! (looks around)
NP girl: they are coming soon...
bethia: where? i dun see them?! excuse me, but this is the PEAK HOUR lor! and you booked the WHOLE ROW??! (...i simply love the way she emphasized with a this-is-bludeh-incredulous rising voice everytime she said WHOLE ROW??...haha)
NP girl: but my friend might want to have an early lunch...
bethia: and you book the WHOLE ROW?? excuse me lor...SIM students have only half an hour of lunch and you are being inconsiderate by booking the WHOLE ROW lor!!
NP girl: i dun see why you have to shout at me...here i am trying to tell you nicely...
bethia (cuts off): because you booked the whole row!! I dun care (slams her notebook down on the table) I'm sitting here. (plops herself down in the chair)
NP girl: go ahead lor...if my friends come here, i'll move your bags away...
bethia: you can't lor (already fishing out for her wallet)
NP girl: try me
bethia: i dun care lor. i'm going to get my food now. (walks off)

yep...that was the conversation plus minus here and there...during the whole verbal onslaught, me and ziwan were juz standing there...absolutely stunned...of coz, by then, the people around us were already watching the whole show like we are in some Korean Drama like that...well, with bethia's voice rising like that, who wouldn't ne?

anyway, since she already plopped her bag down there, me and ziwan were like looking at each other with a stunned grin on our face....clearly we didn't expect bethia to really pick a fight with an NP student...and in the most classic bimbotic way too!! omg...u guys should have seen here...she was pure love i tell u!! so since we didn't have a choice, we plopped our bags down in that row...i was freely telling ziwan how i respect bethia for what she did without even trying to lower my voice...then i asked ziwan to go and buy first coz i only have that one muslim stall to choose from...

i tot the drama ended there, but then...

LUNCH (the MOVIE): PART 2...

NP girl (after telling YET another group that the row was occupied): (to me) i will really move your bags once my friend come...
me: i dun think u will do that
NP girl: i will lor
me: nah...
NP girl (to a group of 4 girls and a guy who had moved into the last two tables of the row while she was talking to me):i'm sorry, but i've booked the whole row
one of the girls: whole row?
NP girl: yes, whole row
other girl: ohh...(moves out with her whole group, but hung around at my table which was at the outside end of the row)
NP girl (to a guy and a girl who moved in around the same time to the last table in the row around the same time as the earlier group move out): i'm sorry, but i booked the whole row...(she kept on using the bludeh sentence? can't she be a lil bit more original??!)
guy partner: whole row? (notice any similarity here...?)
NP girl: yes, whole row....
guy partner: oh...(starts to move out of the row and was walking in front of me, when i cut in...)
me (pointing to the table between ours and the NP girl): this seat is not taken (cheeky grin)
guy partner: (rather quickly putting his books down) oh, not taken?thanks...
NP girl (glaring at me then turning to the the guy): sorry, this seat is taken too...
me (cuts in): come on lah....how selfish can you get? SIM students only have half an hour of lunch lor and here you are booking the whole frickin row during the peak hour....
NP girl: what if my friends wanna have early lunch?
me (cut in): thats not the point, isn't it? come on lah...we only have half an hour of lunch lor...its only a short while lor....
guy (to NP girl): uh, we'll eat only for 15 minutes (goes on to explain to the girl...)

i wasn't listening to his explanation coz i was making funny faces at the bunch of 4 girls and a guy who were still there, whispering among themselves about the whole scene...clearly they were dissatisfied as well....so i saw my chance there...i caught one of the girl's eyes and began mouthing at her to "dun care...juz seat juz seat....dun wurry....juz ignore her...)

i think it worked coz by the time i turned to see the guys finish explainin to the NP girl, the five has started moving back in to the last 2 tables they wanted to occupy juz now...and the drama continues...

LUNCH (the MOVIE): PART 3...

NP girl (to the group of 5): uhh, sorry, this seat is taken....
Guy: i'm sorry lor, but i dun see ur frens around
NP girl: they are coming very soon
Guy: i dun care lor, but u can't book the whole row lor (voice rising)
NP girl (i think she shud be extremeply pissed off by now): but i came here first lor
Guy: I dun care lor (puts his bag down and takes out his wallet)
NP girl: then once my frens come i'll move your bag out lor
Guy: i dun care! i'm gonna buy my food and seat here. see if you can move me!! (stomps off to buy his food)

thru out part 3, i was making silly faces to my friend in another row who was turning back (like all the other people were doing to see what the commotion is about...) one girl who was sitting at the table right in front of me caught me doin the silly face and burst out laughing...when i saw her lookin at me, i made that silly face again and the whole group burst out laughing..clearly they too think that the NP girl is bein very silly for fighting a lost case...

and, OF COZ, that was the end of LUNCH (the MOVIE)

the NP girl gave up in the end, with a very pissed off face

thru out the whole drama, i kept this mischievious-devilish grin that i know will piss her off more than she already is...even thru out part 2, as i was talking to her, i gave her this 'you are so ridiculous' grin....of coz, for those of you who knows me, that was also my pissed-off grin....

well, her friends eventually came....AFTER my group and the other group all bought our food...she booked the whole row, but only a pathetic 3 came lah...the moment they arrived, she started bitching in a loud voice that was meant for us to hear...she was like "dun do that lah..i am SUPER IRRITATED now!!"...she shud be...the 3 of us were clearly bitchin about her...we put on our best bitch armour and made it clear to her that we were talking about how inconsiderate and ridiculous she is...

when she finally moved off (haha!! she lost!!! like duhh....) she said in an extremely loud voice "I DUN WANT TO STAY AROUND THESE BARBARIC BITCHES AND BASTARDS!!" which made her look even stupider, coz all of us juz ignored her...so she looked like she was getting mad by herself...

as she walked off, i gave a final shout "eh? not booking the whole row arh?" she muz be seething if she managed to hear that...haha...i had to say it...i was already in full fighting mode by then...i think if she comes back to slap me (which i wished she had done....), i would have gone into a fray very gleefully....like i said, i was spoiling for a fight....

and i still am...even thru out the first part of ME lecture, i was still in super-excited fighting mode....

haha...

so that was the story of my most eventful lunch in SIM...

now back to my bludeh OTIA assignment....

2007-11-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of this blog page....

my Akame had died...

no more Akame love coz its now KoKame and Jinno love...

wth...

we fangurls are having fun making names for the pairings in KAT-TUN right now...

MaruDa seemed very weird to me coz Maru is not the pairing kind...

so when i read fanfics about Maru, i cringe...

he is too straight...

i can't even remember him doin fanservice...

maybe he dun do fanservice at all....

i'll probably die from laughter if i see Maru doin fanservice...

he is juz not cut out for it like Jin or Kame...or even Ueda...

well, now i'm anticipating Yukan's episode 6....

Kei is gonna be in it...

meaning its gonna be a JE-whoring episode...

and i'll be concrete-glued to my comp screen...

house on fire...?

i'll escape after i finished watching that episode....

bludeh hell...

NewS, Kanjani and KAT-TUN guys rolled into 1 episode...

its sweeet i tell u, its sweeeeeeeet.....

of coz u guys dun understand the significance of this, coz u guys dun like what i like....

probably u guys are wondering why the hell do i write these stuffs in here....?

its my blog, dammit...

i'll write what i like...

anyway, no one comes to read here....

so its my place all the way....

Kurosagi is gonna be out on March next year...

if i ever get to see Pi on posters here in Singapore, i'll do an amazing feat for you...

i'll kiss the poster for you...

okay.....maybe...

coz i'm thinking about the yucky side of kissing the poster....

but if Pi comes down to singapore to promote the movie (most unlikely....), i'll skip school for as long as he is still on our grounds....

i'll change my profession from student to a stalker....

i'll scream and shout his name in a frantic manner....

it'll probably be the only time you'll ever get to see me so crazed....

but since he'll never come down here, u'll never get to see me in that state...

so haha...

Kurosagi, I come with the Rain, Honey and Clover, Hana Yori Dango....

so many movies waiting for me....

so little money....

MU is killing the life out of me...

how the hell do u d/l from that bludeh server...??

i juz posted a complain on my forum...

hopefully the regulars will answer...

i'm a big shot in that forum ne?

which is not good sometimes....

coz being a big shot sometimes means people suck up to you...

and being a big shot also means you can't run away from the number of people who are desperate to get you on their buddy list, hoping that it'll make them look good....

wth....suckers...

and i juz realised part of the reason why some people kept on trying to add me....

one of the regulars listed me under his 'top ten cool people' to add on CR....

i din know i'm that cool...

its flattering, but deleting and rejecting up to 5 buddy requests everytime i log on to CR can be tiring sometime...

especially when i log on up to three times a day....

of coz there are those who added me thru my video uploads....

and then they bug me to upload more videos....

i'll juz delete these buddy whores....

maybe i should be like Laurel....

she deletes them till there is only 10 left....

lucky i'm in the ten....

if not, i'll truly miss my stealth bomber...

yatta....my part 2 of Byakkotai had finally finished....

gonna upload it to my Zen and watch it after i finish reading my OTIA notes....

bludeh assignment....

dang~

oh well...i juz realised its 11/11/07....

Happy 20th Birthday Tesshi....

You'll always be the cutest 15 years old to me...